The unspeakable pain

My name is Nasaru from Kenya. I grew up in the Southern part of Kenya border of Kenya and Tanzania, where my community has divers cultural practices that are both good and bad. I'm writing this article to exlress my pain and see if I can feel better .At the age of 15 I underwent through female genital cut that every girl in my community is obliged to go through . I decided to call it "cut" because according to the way of life of my people the cut is considered as a rite of passage for all the girls in my community to prepare them for motherhood in the future. To me it's a cultural practice that's barbaric, harmful to health,meaningless .So the night before the act was carried out i tried my level best to convince  my parents that I don't want the act to be carried out on me and my sister but my cry felt on deaf ears. No one ever talks about the pain ,the depression one can suffer from undergoing through the cut. At first I didn't see as a big deal because since every girl goes through then I don't have to feel that it's harmful to health act. The day I underwent through the cut is still fresh in my mind it feels like yesterday I always it never happened to me and my sister. I bled till I fainted. I was rush to the nearby hospital.i got treatment doctor said I lost lots of blood. I always tell myself sometimes I should kill the woman who did this to me ... I will rewrite this article without getting emotional.