Say goodbye to monolog

Say goodbye to monolog
When I was a little girl, I already knew that my father want to have a son. What a pity that I only have a sister. I study hard and finish master degree and make my father is proud of myself. My sister did the same thing as me and graduate from a well-known university in south of China.

In university I am very self-abasement because I came from a small village, I even did knew McDonald’s and KFC that is common is the city. I were afraid of speaking publicly very much , at that time I sweat, my leg shake, my voice shock……Just in the university I became to think about women and feminism, I read and other books about women.

During I was finishing my master degree, One day I notice a recruit for actress for drama named “Vagina Monolog”, a drama talking about women, speaking for women. I enter the troupe; all the members and director are female students. I remember it was the year of 2001. We acted in the student center and that was the first time this famous feminism drama was acted in Chinese university. I was performing a girl who was enduring induced abortion. From then on, I got to know that many girls around me are experience abortion, and nobody want speak out. This drama induced a widely discussion in the BBS (campus network) because Chinese seldom talk about this things publicly.

After continuing take part in the drama as an actress, the third year in 2003 I became the director. What we talked from abortion and procreating to lesbians. In 2003, our drama first performed in other university and almost be banned by the governor of the university. Now this drama became the traditional program of my Alma Mater and performs every year. And more and more female students of other universities organize their own “Vagina Monolog”.

What a wonderful memory in university! After I graduated I became a journalist in a small city. Five years past, I married and became a mother. The domesticity makes my feel self-abasement again. I feel I am far away from my dream; actually life makes my dream gone.

Until one day, one classmate sent me a message in twitter about this program, and I try to log in and apply for the “2011 voices of our future”. Every time I log in “World Pulse”, I feel power and passion. Still I have to spend a lot of time in daily work and domesticity, but life is different. I know it is time say goodbye to “Monolog”, it is time to speak loudly in front of the world.

Now, it is midnight in China, my baby son are sleeping quietly, and I am finishing my assignment. What a nice night.