pain of most Indian especially kerala women....

I am a mother of two girls. I can't see any future....i run a fancy and beauty parlour . But its profitless. My husband is a soldier. He was very eager at the beginning, but after two years when it seemed that the business is a loss he is not bothering in that. He made to start the business by taking a gold loan.  Those gold was given by my parents as dowry.  My in laws are also not supportive. They always blame for starting the business. My father passed away 6 years ago. I am from poor family. I couldn't even graduate because of bloody customs and beliefs... My life is going to be a hell... I don't know what to do...