Limiting beliefs

Growing up as a girl is like growing up in definite definition and with limiting beliefs. Girls are like this, like that. Most of the time, we believe in those and suffer under suppression of self which most of us don't even know how to explain. They talk about nature and natural roles of women and when a girl try to push those barriers, they say it against nature. Isn't it hypocrisy that human is the creature on this earth who push all boundaries and natural roles on this earth and the same time preach to the it's own another gender to live in natural roles. As human being, if we would have believed that limitation of nature, we would have been living in forests and hunting animals. But didn't we move beyond this. We pushed those limitation, then why women can't explore further and add more layers in her dimension.

How much have you listened ? "Girls natural role is having a peaceful and happy family." "Her success is in the growth of her kids and her husband." "She is selected for job because of being girl and beautiful." "How easy it to girls, not to struggle, not to earn, just live on a earning husband." "Learn to keep family together, learn how to live in in laws family". "Don't speak your pain". "They are angry so listen, they are frustrated so listen, they go out to earn for us so listen." "It is ok to get angry and misbehave as husband, he deals with the world outside." "Why do you want a job, when you can have earning husband." "Girls are timid and inferior in nature, they can't make decisions in emergency situations, they can't be fierce but the outside world is fierce, men have to be fierce to deal with outside world." "Girls don't know anything, they have no experience, boys go out, meet so many people, they know how the world works"...........

Whole world speaks what is it to be a girl, except the girl herself. Sometimes i want to shout in loud voice, "who the hell are you to tell me what is being girl when i am the girl." Only i can define what is it mean to be a girl and how much to push boundaries and explore more possibilities for myself. A girl can't be told what is being natural, let her be free to accept her nature, you will learn much more about her nature. A nature can't be told by outsiders. 

I completely respect those who still struggled to come out and shine in this world even after all this.

As a girl,

It's a continuous struggle for me, i somehow try to push myself to come out of all this and then again one blow and i return in the loop.

It took me whole one year to understand, i can't fit in all these definitions, not because it's my fault but because these are wrong standards. Then next one whole year to understand that not all people around me can understand it, they are not ready to understand it so i can't make them understand. If i keep struggling with those beliefs, there is chance that i will keep going down and stuck again and question again. 

Now i know, it's not a reply to anyone else. It's just my acceptance of myself. Even if people around me don't listen, don't understand, that's ok, listening myself is more important than fighting with anyone. Those sentences and limiting beliefs are still there but i don't listen.....still it hurts, it breaks....but i put my hands on my ears and i listen that my inner whispering voice...."only i can define myself, no one else." 

I reserve this article to my future self as i know it's a loop and i will need the reminder many time from myself to keep coming out of the loop.