LEAVING MY FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND/A REFLECTION

As long as I can remember ,its been my desire to leave a legacy ,to make an impact that last beyound my lifetime. But achieving that beyound the plans on paper and in my heart  seems impossible at times .

 I dont  listen to that doubtful faithless inner voice , but instead I tune in to the bold ,assertive, faith beyound understanding  part of me ,who knows with God all things are possible. I would not  ,pay mind to that annoying enemy of purpose and progress .  

Last two weeks I had the opportunity to get up early in the morning and be greeted by Gods glorious sunrise ,with the waves gently and playfully running upon the shores covered by soft light as the world slowly awakened , the boats on the water rocking gently to the rythm of the waves ,and in the stillness of breaking  dawn,  the roosters began their duty as natures alarm clock. I sat and inhaled the freshness of this new day ,caressed by its serenity , and I wondered.

I wondered, why I would be given a vision when I didnt have the financial means to accomplish it , but then I am reminded that if its Gods   vision then its already been provided for  and I begin to be thankful .I taught about the young lady Im presently working with  having ran from domestic abuse and her struggle to not only raise her young sickly baby , but she herself as someone with sickle cell ,jobless and in need of proper housing ,stability and this peace and serenity and I wondered .

I wondered , if the  monthly support from my patners was adequate , was it helping her  or enabling her  ,how can I do more to give her what I wished for but didnt get when I was in that space .How I wish I could find a way to truly give her a head start in life, a SETUP  that will really make a difference, that she can get a skill to support herself and get care for her  baby , so she can work and grow and live again , how I wish she could wake up to this too and I wondered 

On this beautiful Island even the breeze seem to blow differently , surrounded by the ocean and covered with lush rain forest , its perfect for my ecosystem  space ,they say speak it into being , they say claim it , so I visited that land and I looked out at the ocean and I claimed it ,and everytime I passed I claimed it and Im believing for it and I am believing for divine provision .

Vision is the Art of seeing what is invisible to others ..Jonathan Swift , It definitely is ,si as I sat and wondered I embraced that vision and I embraced this journey , because I know it has purpose ,I cannot stop domestic violence against women , but I can be a part of the solution , I can provide a save space , I can raise my voice to advocate for change , I can make a difference and I wondered .

As I wondered , my mind reflected as my country celebrated its 60th Year as an Independent nation , it was indeed a time of jubilation as the air was electric with patriotism and pump and ceremony ,from parades to fire works and endless activites of song and dance.  But alas our GBV numbers continue to rise, and with all that has been put in place ,the millions that have been spent to create a safety net and create policies , the human aspect is missing , as so many still slip through the cracks

Like jane my present  , it isnt just about leaving the toxic situation ,its about transformation , its about relearning emotional behaviours , letting go of  past hurts and low self esteem and finding self and realising that you are not finished , but broken vessels still color , that what seems like a mountain can be countered one step at a time . Its about knowing that making better decisions can change the outcome of the direction your life would take 

To Wonder , As Transalated by google means: A feeling of Amazement and Admiration ,caused by something beautiful,remarkable and unfamiliar  .And that is exactly what I felt as I sat there wondering , it seemed a beautiful pass time doesnt it ? But thats good for a time , results make so much more difference and that I know will come .

I have claimed my space on this beautiful Island , by faith , the Subtance of all things hoped for the evidence of all things not seen , everytime I pass by the location I look out at the veiw and its so healing so serene , an instant cure for all of life,s issues, isnt that exactly what those who need redress from lifes false start need ?

My taughts are broken by the sound of the waves now crashing on the and as the sun has risen in all its glory , there are burst of laughter and squeals, and mothers bring their children for their early morning swim , the boats begin to move out as the fisherman head out to sea for the days catch and others glide into the jetty with a fresh haul after a night on the ocean. life was happening and it was beautiful   , the day has just begun .

The excitement happening below me was too much ,I gave in to the ocean,s  beckoning me and ventured out into the sunshine ,walking along the shore , leaving my footprints in the sands , the water caressed me as I stepped into the ocean  and I felt so rejuevenated , I felt alive ,I felt hopeful , I felt possibility ,I felt my wonderings are  possible .