I am living a confused life

I am 26 years old,

Am I doing enough? am I doing well? maybe I am not smart enough, everyone has already achieved so many milestones in their lives, what's wrong with me?

why do I feel anxious all the time?

No, no

I think I am right with my pace.

Yes, everything is fine, you have a job, you have a roof over your head, you have a small friend circle, living a life where you are not dependent on someone even family for your financial assistance. that's what you wanted right?

yes, that's what I wanted.

so let it be,

It's okay being 26, not married yet, people say things it should not bother you, it OK not to have a big friend circle, you like sitting alone dining alone you are fine.

but I don't like being lonely, but it's not in your hand, you are kind of introverted and quiet.

it's normal for quiet people to have fewer friends.

but I want friends. but you said you don't want friends, you are happy this way. but time changed, I changed I want friends now.

you know you like reading books you find peace in them which is good, but books are not helping me, they will, they will make you wise, no knowledge is waste remember?

but it's not working,

it will, books are experiences of other people and if you know what mistakes other people usually make you will keep that in mind while you making your decision, you will make good decisions,

but I am not making the right decisions, you are earning now 2 years back you can't even afford Uber, you make progress, uber? it's not just about Uber I am talking overall you are doing good.

Realize it.

No, I don't think so,

Why?

I don't know...

how do you know you are not making the right decision?

because... I am not feeling right, I feel there is something missing, I am sure I am not doing enough. okay, tell me what do you think is missing? I don't know, it's just I am not happy.