getting here

I came to Jamaica in March 2007 on holiday with family for one week. At that time I lived in New Hampshire, USA - a country town in a beautiful state where I had been for 27 years. Within 24 hours of arriving in Jamaica, I began to feel very powerful internal shifts of consciousness (and it wasn't about ganja!). I can best describe it by saying I felt as if I was walking through a portal...a passageway...and entering into an experience of my life that felt simultaneously familiar - as if I had seen it all from a distance - and very new, requiring faith, courage, and soul searching.

It was indeed the beginning of a time of profound transition in my life. I encountered some of my greatest fears during this time. I also found connection with aspects of myself I had been longing to reach and strengthen.
I still don't know how best to describe the sensation I had of the presence of supportive spiritual energies....ancestors? angels? my own spirit? all of the above? I reached out. I swam inward. I prayed.

And I jumped...