From hate to love

I was really ashamed of the way I looked, the way I sounded, and really of everything about me. And this manifested in physical form as an eating disorder, first anorexia, and then, when my body couldn't take it anymore, it turned into a binge eating disorder. I hated myself through both phases. So I started a psychotherapy journey which really helped me understand why I was so ashamed but that didn't make it go away. I move away from my family alone, to other countries and continents, to look for "the feeling of comfort", I just wanted pure comfort, which now I see that it was comfort in my own skin that I was looking for; it can sound cliché, until you experience it yourself.

Now I know how to talk to myself in order to not take the feeling of comfort away, because I believe my (and everyone's) natural state is to be comfortable but we take it away, mainly with negative self-talk and other unconsciously-learnt behaviors. And I try to use my experience to support everyone I can, who's on a similar journey as myself.

I've finally decided to listen to the calling and my dream is to find a way to support myself financially while supporting others, instead of running away to find random jobs that drain me. So I've finally sat down and recorded an "emergency mini course" about body image, knowing that it's much deeper than just physical body image but that's the easier way in, and I'm working on the "much deeper" in another project. And even though I'm not great at doing business, I know this all happened for a reason.

Hello everyone, I truly thank you for reading this, and I just want to express my gratitude also for this platform, the people that got this amazing idea, and everyone and everything that makes it possible! I can't believe that I found this, when I've been looking for something like this for so long but didn't know how to call it I guess, and how to even search it! Thank you.

PS: My goal is to gift my course (1€, cause I can't go below that price on my website) to my point of contact, so that, if they like it, and think it can provide some value, they can recommend it to their community. But I'm very open to anyone's proposition!