Discovering the meaning of life

I can be proud of myself and my life as i have spent all these 20 years of my life smoothly, passing in every single exam in my life. I have fullfilled many of my dreams living in a very congenial environment with my family.
i did not have to ask for anything, moreover myriads of oppertunities aroused in my life. One of them is to stay in the beautiful London city with my family. Again, i had a great oppertunity to study in a good school, spending my half of the life in an environment like Chittagong University. i really have to admit that, i am really lucky having all these great oppertunities. How many people around me get all these oppertunities? Myriads of poeple around me are derived of their fundamental needs also. Regarding, all these, i think i have been lucky all these years and still having so much great oppertuinities. But, now the question arise how well i used these oppertunities. well, if i see myself as a 18 years old kid, i will see i have achieved many things but failed to take the most important things. As a teenager i was a good student but was a gutless creature. i was quite myopic also. To me most of the ideas for practical life were vague.I did not have the ability to think critically as we were not encouraged to think critically. Truly speaking the way we were imparted knowledge made us feeble. I feel really sorry and laugh at myself when i think how much i used to hate literature. However,literauture has become one of favourite subject as i find the total fredoom here, to think as broad as i can and express my own thoughts logically. the funny thing is that, the consequence was totally opposite in the past as we were confined with our thought reading others note and most of the time find it difficult to digest the high thoughts of others. So, don't you think you will be fed up with the subject where you have to regurgitate others ideas whether you ahve the chance express yourself. I was really myopic.