Am I too mean to myself?

Following the so many stories I have shared here, you all know about my past. Am a survivor of domestic violence. The father of my children was very abusive and therefore I had to quit.

Here is now my story.

   After leaving my marriage at a very young age, I went through a lot and almost succumbed to depression. I picked up the pieces and started allover again.

Being that contented lady, I made some decisions and prayed to God to help me in fulfill. One of them was on how to live with my children. Like any other woman, I wanted them to grow in a peaceful environment. So I made a decision never to introduce any man into their lives as a foster father. This is until they will be mature enough to understand things. 

So, The other day I decided to open up about my life and why am still single for 12 yrs since I separated with my boy's father. I gave out my reasons but only few had to understand me. Many were judging me saying that am too selfish to myself and I should allow my heart to love again.

I have never dated anyone for the past 12yrs. Not that I live in fear from my past relationship but because I choose not to love again until my boys will be all grown-up. Mature enough to understand that the man in my life is my lover not their dad. In the so near future, am planning to start dating. And my prayer to God is to give me the right person who will genuinely love me.

To my world pulse family, am I too mean to myself?