A ray of hope.

Though thankful for the fact that the new year is here, I was a somewhat scared of my plans for 2023.

I had read somewhere before that if a vision or dream makes complete sense  to you, then it likely might not be what you are born to do.  I guess what the person means is that dreams are visions are always larger than life, far beyond what makes sense to our brains, untill we begin to work them out and they become realities. So naturally, because they seem way beyond us, we are scared by them.

 With the Christmas and New year celebrations comes with heavy spendings which usually makes January look like 60 days instead of 31. In December 2022, I decided to start raising funds for the girls I retain in school  for first term so that I won't have to be faced with them being sent home for lack of payment of fees. I put out the call for good spirited persons to help. I was hopeful. I was early. To my  surprise, December came and past and no response. January came and the first week past ,still nothing came in. It seemed like my early call was all in vain. Two days ago schools re-opened for a new term and  I sent another reminder. I started to be scared, I didn't want a re- occurrence of last minute fundraisers as had happened many times before.

It was in this state that I called my self to order. It was too early in the year to start to dispair. It was too early to doubt.  I had many more things to accomplish and this was the least of them all. How could I face other things if I was getting defeated at the beginning? 

One of the students whose fees needed to be paid, is in her last year in secondary School. She needed to have the fees ready so she would not be distracted in her preparations for her final exam. Thoughts about her made my weighed heavily on me.

I had earlier picked "INTERNATIONALITY" as my word for 2023. I was going to be intentional in believing God to help me, Intentional about believing in what I can do, intentional about being a better version of my self, International about being kind to myself, I will intentionally serve me so I can better serve the girls and women I am called to serve. I will Internationally learn and unlearn all that I need to to help me serve better etc.

And now,  I chose to Internationally keep faith. 

And that same day,  a call came like a ray of the sun, bursting through a cloudy day. Two persons decided to pay for the fees for my girls.  It was such a relief.  The final year student kept calling to say thank you when I sent in her fees.The joy in her voice gave me hope. Hopefully, she will have her certificate. It is paid for already.

You may be like me, scared of the things you set out to accomplish in your change making journey 2032. It's normal to be scared.  Only that we don't let fear paralyze us from moving ahead. Sometimes, as early as the beginning of the year, challenges might want to stop us in our tracts. Nevertheless, we move! Undaunted by challenges, we strive yet. 

I was blessed by the miracle of the fees early this year, I know it is meant to spur me on. As I bask in the beauty of this miracle, I am yet reminded that there are more challenges and victories ahead.  This is my push, this is my hope that dreams come true even in unexpected ways. My hope was rekindled even with this little spark.

I can say to the things that lie ahead, BRING IT ON, I AM READY!