A Rare Disease TMAU

Trimethylaminuria or TMAU, formerly called Fish Odor Syndrome, is a metabolic disorder where the body lacks enough enzyme to break down trimethylamine.

I don't know where or how to start, I can't even remember the first day that I noticed those weird reaction of the people around me.

But one thing that I am sure about and that is the awful feeling that is consuming you every day. Because we live in the same hell i know exactly how it feels like to be isolated to others, to be rejected, being ashamed in front of your crush or by not getting any support from your immediate family members especially your parents who are somehow pretending that they don't smell shit on you despite of your everyday struggle at school or at work.

I think I initially noticed my symptoms months after I finished high school so that's the reason why I only finished one year in college because it scarred me so badly I’m afraid now to go out of my room. Ever since the pandemic started I felt it getting worse drove me to my insanity really then the neighbors started complaining then the whole community I wanted to tell everyone that I didn’t ask for this to happen I tried everything I can but it felt getting worse and now they still kept bullying me till now and all of my future dreams of becoming a lawyer has crumbled because of it but you know what I realize that apparently there are a lot of people like me out there who might not now they have it and I wanted to use my voice to tell them that they are not alone and raise awareness towards this disease and that everyone should understand that and remember that we also have feelings and never asked for this disease  .